NANCY El Amor
Hello, I’m Nancy. You are so welcome here, you haven’t shown up by accident and I will tell you why.
Being a curandera (“shaman”) is only part of who I am. Consciousness is part of something much greater than can be defined by a simple label. As you are here, you too are on your path to remembering, awakening, your fulfilling your potential as a being of energy having a human experience.
I have no doubt that you have past lives, a calling, and access to the network that connects us all. We all have a mission to fulfill, but we are encumbered by layers of patterns and conditions that grate the ego; get in the way of seeing and believing what we are capable of – that’s all. This is how I see and live life.
Part of my mission is to help you remember and reactivate your innate beauty and gifts, so that you can see and live what is really going on, and it’s not what you think. It just so happens that I can remember how to connect to the network, how to reweave your gaps, and I retained ancient wisdom that relates to plants and nature (amongst other things). So that’s why I’m here, and that’s why you found me; so we can walk together and reactivate your full potential.
Thank you for checking me out. It’s been a long and interesting path, that’s for sure. I never felt that I chose this, certainly not in this lifetime, button course I did, and now I’m glad the ‘shamanic path’ and I found each other.
Since the beginning of my life as Nancy, I have been able to communicate with unseen beings, plants, spirits and across dimensions and worlds. My family have endless tales of me conversing with ancestors long dead and knowing secrets I couldn’t possibly know. ‘Strange happenings’ and knowing what would happen before happened were common in my childhood. I was known for holding invisible hands, speaking strange languages and relaying information I simply couldn’t have known or understood, certainly not as a small human. All children are born with these gifts, but gradually tend grow out of them. Not me though, and a point came where I just didn’t want it anymore.
Knowing things I shouldn’t, seeing things no one else could and with all the sensitivity that goes with it, I felt that it was impossible to be happy here on Earth. I saw these ‘gifts’ more as a burden and tried to hide them, deny them, bury them… Until I finally realised that the source of my unhappiness wasn’t what was inside me, it was the fact that I was trying to deny what I was. Plant medicine helped me a great deal and they have taught me many things that I now pass on to others who are trying to figure themselves out.
Oh what a journey life is, the never ending story of magic and mayhem, beauty and truth in the shadows… Once I opened my eyes to seeing myself as an Earth walker I learned to weave with energy and consciously connect and / or travel to other realms. I stopped destroying myself and began trusting myself, gifts and messages (little by little). Just like all of us, the answers are always inside and often where you started out, but the journey itself is the key to unlocking it all. It’s when you get back to the beginning you realise you had the power all along. It’s my honour to walk beside you as you reconnect, remember and begin living from your heart again.
“I didn’t go looking for this path, I actively tried to avoid it. In the end it caught up with me and I eventually surrendered. Now I’m very gad I did.”
Nancy
I’ve been working with plant medicine for over 24 years. It started for me with Kaxinawa’s in Brazil in my late teens. I was taken to an Ayahuasca ceremony, not knowing anything about what we were doing. Lucky for me, I had the most beautiful experience of my life. Here a relationship was forged and innocently I began the journey back to myself…
What I witnessed, the ‘shamanic’ practices resonated with me right from the start, and still do, but from that night I felt it in my bones, the knowing of something much greater, where we come from and what we have access to.
The path had found me and I simply kept showing up (sometimes on my knees). At a time before the internet etc, it was near impossible to find out more about such clandestine practices, but through what can only be described as ‘divine intervention’, the path just kept unfolding and I kept remembering. But there are no coincidences, right? Looking back I can only describe it all as ‘re-remembering’, every step of the way echoed something I already knew somewhere inside of me.
Life in the western world took over for a while there too – I really tried to fit into a pattern that wasn’t designed for me. I was a teacher for 10 years in state comprehensive schools in London, but behind the scenes I continued to walk and remember, walk and remember, always feeling like I was being guided somehow (but also continually questioning whether or not I just had a wild imagination).
I learned about Cacao ceremonies, responsible and sustainable use of plant and animal medicines, Kambo, shamanic practices from the lower Amazon and the Andes, energy healing, divination, alchemy and so on… I even became a hypnotherapist and NLP practitioner.
For years shamans and people told me that I had a gift for being an instrument for the medicines and spirits to work, but I simply couldn’t believe it (didn’t want to believe it) and refused to own it for a long time.
One day everything changed. I could no longer ignore what was in my soul; the message came loud and clear. Feeling lost and full of pain and trauma, I knew I had to turn all this into a breakthrough opportunity to turn my life around. I knew it was time to start living from my heart.
I took the opportunity to dive deeply into myself and this became a period of solitude and intense self-healing. After I met Arnaldo, he would call me on the phone from far away in the jungle, and our connection, via the Medicine, deepened profoundly and it felt right for us to join hands and work together, combining eastern and western traditions and practices for the benefit of all. I just wanted to give back to others and I felt that shamanism (curanderismo) had saved me from myself. This just made sense. It was selfish to keep it to myself.
Today Arnaldo and I work in the Amazon together holding dietas and creating opportunities to work with plants, upholding principles of humility, respect and compassion. I love my life amongst healers, teachers, shamans, communities and the people I’ve worked with and come to know and love.
It took a lot of time, patience, dedication, self-enquiry and self-compassion to get to where I am, I nearly gave in many times. But this is the process, this is the path; we have to remember oursleves before we can be useful to anyone else. Our battle scars and stories of endlessly getting back up again are what make us who we are. Now I understand how our demons can become our greatest strengths and that our magic lies behind facing our fear and pain.
Today I wouldn’t change any of my personal story, even though there were times I didn’t believe I could go on. I’m so grateful for my life and how it galvanised me; for the ancestors; to nature and its divine intelligence; for these sacred practices that have become my way of life now. I’m so grateful I can be useful. Thank you for reading this and I look forward to learning who you are some day soon too. Much love, Nancy
“You are an alchemist and you create your reality.” – Nancy
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